Job Prospects

Just like to ask this question. What would you do if you know that your progression in the company is limited, your pay increment is equal to zero due to bad business, your bonus nowhere to be found and your job is fire-fighting every day? Would most people decide to leave, just like what I have felt a few weeks ago? Or you stick around? Not that I have decided not to leave, just that I have not made the decision to leave yet.

Honestly speaking, I am really very very tired of going for interviews again, having to explain to people why you decide to leave, which you can't voice straight that you do not like the company, full-stop. You can't say that, because that will make you looks bad and they would be scared that you can't stay long with a company.

Many times I also wonder why I can't stay long with company. Is it really my problem? I wonder what is the problem. So many questions and no answer, and the thing is you do not know where to find the answer. Haiz :(

Bitching about work

What is worst - having a job which works the hell out of you or without a job at all at this difficult time?? Tough call, right?? Same here.

I just landed this job a couple of months ago and I was being briefed that I have to double up two role for the salary of one, telling me that it's a breeze. But since I'm familiar with both role and being confident that I can handle both roles with ease, I took up the job. Honestly, I needed the job also, having been jobless for a month and debts to repay. Besides the workplace is near to my home and there is company transport almost from my door-step.

On hindsight, I should not have believe them on just their words. I dunno is it due to my bad luck or bad decision, this job is much more difficult that I have thought it to be. Maybe I was having such a good relaxing time in my ex-company that I was not able to adapt to this new environment. Maybe this is an MNC while my ex-company is a local small establishment (although public listed but then again it is not run as a public listed company).

In any case, dealing with colleagues and superiors in such big MNCs are kind of tricky and you have to be well-versed with the chinese kungfu - TAI JI. Otherwise you will be taking over new tasks which should not have happened in the first place. But being new to the company, one is usually vulnerable to getting new tasks, which happens to me. So the previous secretary is merely doing half of what I am doing now. Sob... sob... sob....

But there is also perk... just enjoy 2 year end lunch sponsored by company, which is about it, nothing else. Well time to work now... ciao, bye, sayonara... till the next time I write, see ya....

SKorean actress found dead in apparent suicide

It's really creeping to think how depression can do to a person. And the worst thing is you won't know when it hits you. Saw this article online (see full story here) and recall an experience I had.

Though I have not consult a doctor on my condition, but I do suspect that I have suffered from depression once probably a few years ago back. Can't recall the exact time, maybe I just want to forget it. Anyway I had a really terrible time at work - had a nasty boss who is very stingy and picks on you. I really hated work and I can't sleep well, always feel like crying and even throwing temper around.

Luckily I have my boyfriend (now my husband) which keeps on counsel me and give me encouragement. I must say I'm lucky and I also learn to relax myself, always remind myself to not take work too seriously.